I can't seem to find any telecast, live or replay, of the US Open 2006. I keep switching to ESPN because it's supposed to be covering the last Grand Slam of the year, but it's always golf or football/soccer. OK, we did see the Agassi-Pavel first round match last Monday (which was probably the most thrilling first round match EVER, partly because Agassi will retire after this year's US Open so this is his last shot EVER), but it was in another channel. And then no more tennis in any of the sports channels sa cable. Oh sure, there were news bits in this Sport Update channel, but then they showed updates from all sports so you had to endure boring news about rugby and cricket before you could watch news from tennis. And they kept repeating the same stuff for several hours until more recent news could come in.

*sigh*

If it's any consolation, I could always get news from the internet. But then it's just not the same as watching the whole match. Oh well. Grr... So frustrating.

I feel like I’m 21 going 100. I feel so tired, overwhelmed and out-of-sync. But most of all, I feel frustrated at the futility of it all. I mean, the recurring thought in my brain for the past several months has been “why bother?” Why bother getting up in the morning (which, for my body clock, is around 11 am), why bother eating, why bother tuning in to stupid telenovelas when they all follow the same stupid clichés anyway, why bother with anything at all.

*sigh*

Everything is just so wrong. Wrong course, wrong school, wrong choices, wrong timing, wrong everything. I feel so worthless. And puny. Like a tiny speck of dirt on a glass window in a skyscraper. Bad analogy, I know. That’s how stupid I’ve become after more than a year of being a bum.

I just want to go far, far away from here. From everything familiar. From everything that’s driving me insane. From everything that’s pulling me down..

Needless to say, that longer entry I promised would be far, far away, too. I do have a draft, but I can’t seem to turn it into something coherent. I just can’t write anymore. I feel so tired and empty. So so tired.

Well, goodbye for now.

i feel like an ugly duckling today.

i hate the new biolink commercial.

*sigh*

Justine won't be playing in the Roger's Cup in Montreal. Darn it. Boo. Boo-hoo. Kainis.

It's been nothing but golf and boxing on TV lately, and I'm getting impatient for tennis. No, Andie, this has nothing to do with tennis skorts. What's underneath the skorts, though... Haha, just kidding. :P

Here are Justine's upcoming tournaments. Just can't wait.

14/08	Rogers Cup
28/08	US Open
16/09	Fed Cup Final 2006

P. S.

That longer entry I promised? Uh... It's gonna be delayed. Very delayed. I had to have this computer fixed and reformatted, and it took days. And the stupid thing is, it still ain't fixed. *roll eyeballs* So there. Plus the fact that I've been braindead for the past week. Oh well.

Due to insistent public demand (and by public I mean Andie), I am updating this blog. This is kinda worthless though. A longer entry will follow soon. :)

We all know Justine Henin-Hardenne lost to Amelie Mauresmo in the Wimbledon finals, like, eons ago, but I’m still moping about that defeat. So for several weeks now I’ve been switching to sports channels, hoping to catch replays of tournaments she won, like the Roland Garros and Dubai Open. And I’ve been reading up on her and downloading her pictures (preferably the ones where she’s holding a trophy) from the Internet. Wow. I’ve made such good use of my time, haven’t I?

Anyway, she’s supposed to be resting now, so she’ll be joining just a few minor tournaments. Although she’s sure to be in the US Open later this month and the Fed Cup finals in September, so I’ll be looking forward to those. Allez, Justine!

Well, that’s all for now. Til next time.